hey boy.

...why you didn't call me?



and really, you just injured my pride.






it's: the blow.

c is for camping.

...that's (more than) good enough for me.


although both days i was only there overnight and a bit in the a.m.- meeeeeeeeeeeean.



.need.sleep.

tell me do you know what that was?

...was it a sign? ...i think it probably was.



he's coming back around...good 'ol m.j. & 1997.

art&fleakin' awesome.

...i'd say it was a success. sold some stuuuuuuuuuuff, saw a bunch of mi homies, met some new people..had a lot of fun.

i'm hoping next month is a go-go, too.


mucho mahalo all who support!!

fall five years ago.

...click: sundress.

reminders of then.

already.

...really? it's been almost a year i've been obsessed with avetts!?

last year october: ba da da da da, i'm lovin' it. (that was stuck in my head all day, ask my co-workers.)

mofo.

click: it.
(it's true)




...so what if i had a lot to say in the past few mintues.

o.h.

...orion.okinawa.obsession.okay.
home.

i looked at your picture.

...and missed your face.(after i had a few)

but i'll be okay.

things are good.

...swapped it up and been working nights this week. it's good to see the old crew, time just c r e e p s compared to the a.m.

halloween decor is up! ...come over and draw a halloween picture please.


been super busy getting things ready for art & flea this week..only a few days away!


always loving this one: simple love song.

the truth hurts.

...had an ocean sesh. with kam. she filled me in on some needed info found out via social networking. like we had suspected, mr.too-good-to-be-true was exactly that, too good to be true- a.k.a. fake..

but:
at least now i know so if he came around...hellllll naw.
at least it didn't last any longer than it did, or the heart would have hurt more.
at least i know it wasn't totally ME.
at least i know he's a dick- NOT someone i would want to be with.
mostly, at least i know i can like someone other than o.d.
it all happened for a reason.
j said he doesn't deserve me anyway- he was right.


once again:
nothing ventured, nothing gained.


p.s.
i had a couple mid-day drinks after the beach with kam..nothing nuts.
psh, how quickly my decisions change.
but it was only appropriate, i thought.


looking forward to dinner at my new favoritest place e v e r: izakaya naru.

the sky trades the moon for the sun.

...good morning.


click: left on laura, left on lisa.

will you come again?

...it's hard to say. i surely hope so.

click: will you return.

just because the music is cool.

...doesn't mean the musician is.

naw, naw..he's aight, just not my type. thank got wing-cuz was there for the awkward dinner while i spaced out and thought about those i'd rather be cruising with.

(not so)routine check-up.

...began this morning, 8 a.m.

i was finally establishing care with my physician so i could then see a specialist for my wrists.

first off, i was sitting in the office waiting, kind of laughing to myself, wondering if my mom was right about me possibly being a bit of a hypocondriact (sp?). idk, i just feel that if something feels not right about my body and there is something further i could possibly prevent, i would rather take care of it now...

anyway, my primary said let's just do some blood work to check before seeing a specialist. right off the bat, the idea of "blood work" started making me feel nervous. next, the blood drawer said, "i'm gonna need three," and mind you, these tubes are NOT small. so this made me feel even worse. knowing how queasy i get, i pretty much figured i might pass out..especially because i only drank a little and didn't eat any breakfast before my appointment.

so as he's starting with the needle i started praying..saying the hail mary in my head, i think.

next thing i recall, i'm in what seems like the scariest f'in trip of my life. one of my first thoughts as i was coming to was wondering if i had o.d'd on drugs or something...but then i realized where i was again and realized that, yeah, i must have just passed out.

at first they thought i may have had a seizure, but i didn't (my body just jerked a bit when i fainted).

since i was only at a clinic when this happened, they called the emt's and i had my first ambulence ride (to the main hospital). (yes, they were speeding with the sirens, i.v. and everything..)

when i got there they did lots of tests, most of with the blood they had taken already. but they had to take one more blood test and i was crying because i was really scared. ...i ended up being okay though.

after a couple hours i was released. like i thought, the combination of pain/blood anxiety and not eating/drinking resulted in that. doc said to eat well, drink water and rest.

ae86 tomodachi picked me up and we got some lunch.


it was and unusual day, but i'm okay.

mail art.

...the really good kind of mail.
mahalo mo!

no labels.

...just d.

pink barrette: had since i was a little kid. (used to be two)
black barrette: made in sixth grade with magazine cut-outs and nail polish.

one week no drink.

...it's actually been a week and two days to be exact. and i haven't missed it at all. honestly i've been feeling better and sleeping better. it's not like i had a huge problem with constantly drinking or something, i just feel that i had no limit/control when i did..and definitely inhibitions fly out the window. "diane is not diane when she drinks," accoring to j.bell. until i feel responsible/ready, no need drink/no like drink.

three day rule. well, this was originally my cousin greg's rule: "any girl who wants to make plans any more than three days in advance-mehh." ...you never know what can happen in three days- so true. ..n.d. and i were making plans for next month, etc. (mistake!!)
think i'm gonna try this new rule from now on. so if a guy asks me if i want to do something in a week, i'm gonna say, "ask me again in four days."


there's a new busser at work. he guessed i was 30 (he's 18). wtf.


yesterday i was feeling quite like a responsible adult. after work i went to lowe's to take care of somet carepting matters and then had my semi-annual check up/cleaning at the dentist.
i noticed my dentist's name is mr.hatanaka...which is really ironic because "tanaka" is a super common japanese last name, and "ha" means tooth/teeth in japanese!! haha...maybe that made my day.
after that i came home and went to sleep at five. (that was great, too.)

9.11

...another decent day at work. newspaper got me a little teary-eyed at the stand. cruised with my new friend b and then a nice mellow evening with the cuz.

internet down, boo. :/

i wanna fit in.

...to the perfect space.