Monday, November 30, 2009

ma-ma monday.

i did the cleaning i do when i'd much rather procrastinate the homework than do it.
and procrastinating, that, i still am.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

starting to stress on sunday.

draft one of final story due tuesday and i've yet to do anything (no interviews, no research, no idea what i'm doing)...but since i'm the biggest procrastinator ever and feel like i work better under pressure, it's just the way it is.

and math. haven't been there for like...two weeks between the fact that it's only twice a week, skipping and the holiday.

buuuuuuuut, big island friday- woo woo.


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work had its share of ups and downs.
hotties and snotties.

if i was going to make a music video to a song, this would definitey be the one.
i decided this like three years ago.
click: crooked teeth.
it was going to be like someone just driving around, reminising. (in a dope ass car, of course; one car would be hard to choose though), so it'd be like shots of dope scenery, car, driving, person, old thoughts, etc.)
quite possibly, (top choices right now): an el camino, an old datsun pickup, an old vw bug/bus, suzuki samurai...and, of course, the hachi-broku, maybe even a sweet station wagon. (ok, or those are just a list of some cars i <3/want, but still, good for "the video")
after two days of mostly sleeping i woke up to get lost in savers, which is now re-arranged and more tidy.
then i went to diamond head at noon and sat on the wall and watched the surfers far below.

also hung out with rat-tail cutlass a couple of times, although now he's more just like rat-tail because the cutlass needs stickers, a new battery, a new tire and an oil change.

other than that, i haven't been thinking about school at all (although i should be) and will probably be stressing about it in the next day or so.

tonight:
finally got to eat some pumpkin pie at work .
kind of slow.
poked my finger with a piece of glass (on accident, of course).
made some money.
drank an echigo after.
threw it up when got home [idk why].

Thursday, November 26, 2009

i <3 pumpkins.

pumpkin pie. mmmmm.


"it's not that you have bad luck, you're just a dumbass." ...just heard that on "that 70s show".

my thanksgiving, which technically started at 12 a.m. this morning has consisted of: part of a mickey's 40 oz, part of an asahi, the casserole me and d.a.b. had frozen from a while back, and some sanpincha, grahm crackers, more casserole and quesadillas.
i'm definitely not complaining, just enjoyed the relaxing day off.
spent most of it sleeping and the remainder of it wondering what i was doing (with life, current situations, etc), and realized that i'm not digging naga-chan.

as far as shallowe qualities go he was good on paper, but in general i was definitely beginning to see more cons than pros.

kissing him was not bad, but everything else that had to do with his mouth (what he had to say, the way he said it...) i could hardly stand.

i could tell olive really didn't like him and the way he tried to call the cat was by saying, "hey! come!" in a stern voice...like, do you really think a cat is going to respond happily to that?
i tried to teach him to say "olllliiiive" the way i do when i call her, but for some reason it was a difficult concept for him.
and he kind of reminds me of my crazy ex boyfriend whom i got a restraining order against.
and he sniffles a lot. he could had a cold, or be allergic to cats...or other things for all i know.
he seems too nice so much that it's fake.

and he smothers me and i don't even know him.
i learned from it.


cut off.



click: don't look back in anger.


since i didn't eat any pupmkin pie i'll just have to get it on my birthday. i like it instead of cake anyway.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

it's not that i love you,

...human contact just feels nice.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

am i wearing too much purple?

...is what i asked d.a.b. while getting ready for an inpromtu "date" with some friend of a friend's friend whom i met at work(not darren-he's a goner).
random? yes. anything to lose? no (i have pepper spray)
it's whateva.


instead of going to math class today i decided to come home and scrub the oil stains off cement of my parking slot.

d.a.b. and i started cleaning up the lanai. a picnic table would be nice.

i want.
http://losangeles.craigslist.org/sfv/cto/1472042263.html


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quite random of me to wear purple on the "date"; i rarely wear purple. the dude's favorite color? it just so happened to be purple. and not like small kine, like looooves purple. ...a little odd to me, (liking the color purple part) not that the dude is odd.

we saw "blind side", twas a good show, and grabbed some grub and bought kitty litter.
in comparison ddddarren there was definitely more chemistry and much more to talk about, but nothing i'm trying to jump into...

in taking a friend or two's advice, althogh it just happen to be, he's older than anyone else i've ever really "talked to" ladat (four years older than i).

p.p. knows him through work kine shit and isn't very fond of him...i don't know exactly why. but either way i'll probably find out for myself. sometimes the hardway is inevitable, and besides, that's life.
bottom line, it's whateva.


very, very weird coinsidences:
-met up at ward
-was wearing jeans, a tank and a sweater
-forgot to turn my lights on when leaving
-green is good
-knows p.p.
-it's automatic.


the dude...we'll just call him....naga-chan.

and he told me, "i like you a lot," in the accent llyod did in "dumb & dumber".

Monday, November 23, 2009

i love you so much it hurts.

click: sunlight.

new mason jennings tune.


i had to listen to three new m.j. songs until i heard one i that i really liked. and it honestly made me sad for a minute because he is pretty much my favorite artist of all (at this time), and all of a sudden i wasn't automactically loving his new stuff? sometimes it does take me a minute to warm up, but sometime i'll never really love it. time will tell.

as for this song, however, i love it automatically.

it's november 23rd already!?

...i'm sure everybody is thinking the same. time flies. ...even when you're not always having fun.


Sagittarius - Nov. 23, 2009

This is one of those days when you might not be fully appreciated for the wonderful breeze of fresh air you bring to the group, dear Sagittarius. Revenge of the stale and old may be coming into the fold today. Don't give in to negative forces trying to hold you back from expressing yourself fully. Have confidence that you have everything it takes to be successful in whatever path you decide to undertake.

MSN Astrology

...oh, ri ri?


click: montana.
this song makes me want to road trip...this chilly time of year...anywhere...or in montana (i've never been there).
it's just the kind of song i would probably be listening to on a road trip. this, that, and a lot of mason jennings.
i would just drive and drive and drive and look around and drive and sing and probably smoke a couple of cigarettes and take pictures and think about life.
and feel really free for a minute. or a week.

maybe tennessee? (no, been there, done that)
maybe arizona? (the weird white people at watersports were usually from arizona...)


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click: i miss you.
blink 182...i was a big fan of them back in seventh grade days mostly, and a bit after as well.

as far as today goes, i ran a lot of errands and crossed some things of the 'ol to-do list, which is always a good thing.

so for about the past couple of years i hadn't really found a bathing suit that i LOVE, until today.
and i bought it, even though i probably shouldn't have...but i swear i saw a glow beaming from it and heard a singing choir of angels in the background when i spotted it.
maybe motivation to get my white-side out in the sun and get some color.

then when i stopped by my old day job i had an old paycheck i didn't know about...which pretty much covered the cost of the new swim suit. chee hee.

today was a day.

...just like any other, i suppose.
i woke up, i drank liquids, and ate food, and did things around the house and watched some t.v., and a home movie (although that is not a thing i do normally) and napped before work.

i worked and made some money and then a beer after work with some homegirls and came home.

olive's litter box is in my bathroom (so that's why sometimes it stinks), and at least twice today she came to use the litter box when i was using the toilet...
coincidence or cycle?

Friday, November 20, 2009

honesty is the best policy.

even when the truth hurts.

it started with puffy eyes.

and it's ending(ed) with puffy eyes.


lesson learned for the day: chew food.
after a bit of a rough one last night i woke up and rid some of the bad in my belly and in my throw up: whole, long inoki mushrooms.


Sagittarius - Nov. 20, 2009

It's an excellent forecast for you, dear Sagittarius! Although no specific events leading to this will occur today, there is huge promise of freedom for the next few months. In your chief occupation and in your love life, a fundamental shift is about to occur. As the months unfold, you can expect to be more visionary, more creative, and perhaps more rebellious. This time, you'll be much more effective than in the past two or three years.

MSN Astrology

...let's hope so.

b-sauce-isms.

are you lookin' at my butt?


wooooooo weeeeeeee.


botta bing, botta boom.

to the man that saved our lives.

...happy birthday and thank you, mr.keliiaa, even though we've never met. (j.rak's paps)
he always looks out for j.rak in her many times of need. on one particular occasion, the only time j.rak and i have ever been in a fight, was at a random boy's house in arcadia, whom we met from the cheesecake factory, when we were sent to "work" (and i only say "work" because it was mostly fun) in california a couple of summers ago.
bottom line- we both liked him.
we somehow let some loser dude we barely knew get between us.
as we left his house driving (drunk), arguing, lost, we somehow managed to find our way perfectly and safely. although we barely remember the return drive, except the fact that we were yelling at each other and then making up a couple minutes later, we also remember seeing random brushfire on the side of the road.
somehow we just knew mr.keliiaa helped us find our way back to our in irvine.

of course the next morning we were like: what were we thinking?!




what's best for me, that's, well, what's best for me.
j.rak helped me remind me of this on our 1 a.m. phone call.

things will definitely be better when she gets back. i'll have my "one friend" again. that one friend that you can call pretty much anytime, to do anything, as long as they're not working...and if they are working, you're probably working there, too, at the same time.



live and learn.

look on the brightside, ms.whiteside.

sometimes it may be hard to see...
but it's there, somewhere.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

things on thursday.

omg. i've been killin' this song.
love the song, think the video is kind of weird.
click: two coins.

Sagittarius - Nov. 19, 2009

Emotionally you should be feeling strong today, dear Sagittarius, although you may find that there is an idea running through your head that is asking you to slow down and take things once step at a time. The internal dialogue could drive you crazy if you are not careful. The most important thing for you to do at this time is to simply follow your heart. Do what you love to do, and associate yourself with the people you love and respect the most.

MSN Astrology.

...like i've always said, follow your heart.


well, hell, just looked at my old planner to see what i was doing on november 19th in 2007. i had just arrived in tennesee to meet my (now, or course)ex, nfj, road trip to minnesota to surprise my parents for thanksgiving and give him a car which didn't really run (but he could fix), but i looooved, but that my parents wanted out of their driveway.
a car in which spacy and i had actually been discussing at work tonight, and i love them oh-so-much: the good 'ol ae86.
oh and p.s. did i forget to mention we were going to keep this car, "our car", forever? ha. and i really belived it.

i can't easily find any documentation of what i was doing last year at this time...i was writing everything in "the notebook" and not dating anything.


j.rak is moving back! cheeee heeeee. only one month away!


got a facial and my make-up did at my friend's beauty-kine school plcae. made my skin feel suuuupa nice and probably had on the most make-up i ever did in my entire life. i kind of liked it, although it's nothing i would take the to do (or know how to do) on a regular basis.
i got some powdered face suncreen. pretty sliiiick. and of course i need it if i want to prevent wrinkles and potential skin cancer because i'm really, really bad about putting on sunscreen.
although these days i'm pasty white.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

(red)ford day.

picked up two movies from the h.k. library. one i heard about on an episode of sex and the city [the way we were], and the second one for school [all my sons]. i didn't notice both were robert redford flicks- handsome.
not sure if i'll have time to watch them today, but it's only a dollar a week!

school newspaper article: dining out ettiquette.
i wrote this on a whim after closing three nights in a row. gee, i wonder why...

so i finally had the satisfaction of clearing "o.p.p." off of my to-do list. this of cours meaning "other people's property" was the name of my mission to steal back an old cheech and chong deck of big chris'; although i technically say it's mine because he "indian" gave it to me.
anyway, after about two years i finally stole it back last week.
and now b-sauce is holding my work shoes as a hostage until i front the board back. i have work at 530 p.m. tonight.
dearest board, it was good while it lasted...




cutie video! (and it's filmed down the road from my house!)
click: shawty.

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watched "the way we were" this afternoon before work. i guess it's sort of a classic chick flick...and of course in some ways i felt i could relate with katy; definitely when it comes to the being too easy part. (no, i'm not talking like slutty, but more so in the easily giving away love aspect, and maybe giving too much?) ...i guess if there is a thing as too much love.
not to ruin the ending or anything, but in the end-end, they do not end up together and i was a little disapointed because i usually like movies ending in happily ever after...but, i guess sometimes that's just the way the cookie crumbles.


so i got to work and realized (or so i thought) that i had forgotton my black work pants at home...and starting in fifteen minutes didn't really give me the time to run home. once i realized they weren't in my bag, i checked my car (in the dark parking structure and for some reason couldn't get the flashlight in my car to work), and yah, basically didn't find the pants.
i ended up having to wear ed's spandex tight-legging things. ahhhh.
it looked kiiiiiinda goofy. and tareeeeek laughed a lot.
at least my shirt was long enough to cover my b-b-booty. aye, what a night.
and then when i got into the bug to drive home, guess what i found under my feet...?
my black pants.
and for some reason then...my flashlight worked.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

my tuesday evening consisted of more christmas decor, a few beers, my roomie, paper crane making and some christmas carols.

since olive cannot handle the temptation of dangling christmas ornaments, we've decided to have our "main" christmas tree with just lights and paper cranes.
i also have a mini-tree that is decorated with shell ornaments my mom made from shells she found in okinawa.
and another tree in progress-the hand tree.

speaking of naughty olive, she's also been stealing caramels from a thanksgiving turkey dish.

went to savers yesterday because i needed, well, nothing...and left with a lot of somethings. best catches of the day: a rasta-colored, knitted baby blanket for future bebe(s), some baby chuck taylor shoe's for jamie's bebe, and a family circus (the comic) little boy's t-shirt (for me) that says: "yesterday's the past, tomorrow's the future and today is a gift, that's why it's called present."

r.i.p. the sherlock.

Monday, November 16, 2009

at the end of the rainbow.

...twas the bug.


school paper article: sexual health.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

you know you could.

i wish you would.
click: come pick me up.

it's been a while.

and still not much to say.


i eat. i sleep. i watch t.v. and procrastinate.
and work. and drink.


an old friend is in town so spent yesterday crusing the long way to north shore.





click: it's been a while.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

11-11

i just happen to catch the time at 11:11, and it is indeed 11-11, so...i guess this times wish was extra special. and i wished for what i always wish for.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

11-10-09

article in school newspaper: thieves strike softball batting cages.

hitting the sack.

but before i do here's a daily recap:

picked up the house.
tweezed up my eyebrows.
went to work.
math with micah.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

unsayd.

私とタリク クラフトのフエア に 行きました。沖縄のドナツ(アダギ)と水とジュースと二つクラフトの物を買いました。ぜんぶは五ドルだった。
たくさん物が好きでも高かかった。

(i just felt like writing it in japanese (or better yet, seeing if i still could))

translation:

me and tareeek went to the craft fair. i bought okinawan doughnuts (andagi), a water, a juice and two small craft things. everything was only $5.
i like a lot of stuff, but it was expensive.


other good things about today:
minus the crappy part of having to go to a work meeting at 9 a.m. when i had just left work around 2 a.m. only hours before, it wasn't such a bad morning.
on the nice sunday drive to pick up tone (whom wasn't there), tareeek spotted a mickey mouse phone on the side of the road...so of course, score.
basically i got a phone that questionably works for my non-existant house phone line.
he said i wouldn't have to go to savers this week.
chee heee.
but i'm pretty sure i'll still go.




bbkf.


click: thank you.
this was my sunday morning jam on my sunday morning drive thanks to crater 96.5 fm.
it was a good one.

11月07日09年

kam did not kill me, but i could have quite possibly killed myself or someone else. drinking and driving = stupid, stupid, stupid. i don't want to learn the hard way....because it would be so hard.
and things are hard enough as it is.

Photo by: Sweet D (therefore, i am not in the picture.)

blur.


i woke up this morning dreading to look at the "outgoing calls" list on my phone, semi-remembering a specific drunk-dial.
i had punched in the numbers, (which i had ever so cleverly deleted out of my phone (but not my head), manually.
i could tell you the number now, i could of told it to you last week, and i'm sure i'll still probably know it in a few months if someone asked me.
thankfully, last night, however, i instead was drunkenly dialing some other fairly well known number in my head: my own house phone. (which i disconnected at least about a year ago, which explains why some operator message kept coming on).
basically, i was too drunk to dial the right numbers.
and i'm glad about that.

and i did roll through work last night pretty buss, and binky (a.k.a. bbc), said i was a "cute drunk". oh god. i didn't even want to know the stupid things i probably did or said...ha

we did definitely eat at like-like drive inn, and i'm thinking i got fried rice.

while out, i lost my house key and no one else was home when i got home, so i just slept in my car until about 8 a.m., until i was eventually able to (forcibly) let myself in.
the first entrance i tried didn't quite work and resulted in a scraped elbow and some cuts on my right calf.
second attemp= success.




luckly, (or so i thought), i had another spare house key.
but when i got home from work tonight i realized the key did not work, so, i again had to forcibly let myself in.
it was good i had a flashlight in my purse.

*sigh


work went zipping by.

Friday, November 6, 2009

first friday...

between grey's anatomony and the news, i've been quite a ball-bagger when it comes to sitting in front of the t.v.
things are just sad.

i also really, really, really want to go see "a christmas carold", which comes out tonight...but then again, no one i would really want to go with.


an old song randomly popped into my head. me and my sister used to have the "onesy" tape that we got from the poptart box.
i used to looove this song.
click: sending all my love.


the plan is to go out with kam tonight. she swears she won't kill me...

Thursday, November 5, 2009

the ample sleep, or perhaps, more than ample sleep the past two days left me tossing and turning early this morn.
d.a.b. was up getting ready for work, so we decided to go get some starbucks and sit outside in the chilly air around 6:30 a.m.

i've been watching a lot of news lately. it's pretty sad, a lot of it.


what i wouldn't give to spend another day without having to go to work or school...
but no, i should go to school. i do like it, after all.


Sagittarius - Nov. 5, 2009

There will be intimacy in the air over the next few days. Loved ones suddenly want to spend more time with you, and you find yourself wanting to invite friends over every night of the week! By all means, do so. You will be recharged, and some of the wonderful discussions you'll have could really lead to something great! However, there may be a bit of tension in the air to temper all that closeness as not everyone will totally agree with your point of view on things.

MSN Astrology

...i would doubt it, but we shall see...

so emo.
click: ever so sweet.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

over things for a minute.

or two.

all day i dreaded writing a paper, but did it.
and i dreaded having to go to work, but was planning on it...until about ten minutes before i had to leave, i got it covered.
pure laziness, or something like that.


i just didn't feel like it.
and not much to say.


i've found cleaning is theraputic as well as a necessity.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

no need to go outside.

click: white daisy passing.


all the pouring rain has finally cooled off the air...enough so that today on my self-named "sick day" i threw on a pair of long-underware, a hoodie, and decided to email my teacher i would not be attending class today.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

the early november.

the thanksgiving decor has errupted. and as soon as that's over: christmas.
i just saw a commercial for "a christmas carol" movie coming out. the song in the background was my favorite christmas song: carol of the bells.

and a christams epiosode of scrubs was on. it was a nice thing to watch on a sunday afternoon; but i'd rather be watching it with *you.


i definitely need to take a day and catch up on movies.


click: make it up.


*and this "you" in which i'm referring to, it's no one person in general. i guess there's someone i could image it to be, or wish it was, or just don't know yet, but yah, just saying, it would be nice.