Ｐｈｏｔｏ ｂｙ： ＪＫ
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Associates in Liberal Arts
i just got my certificate in the mail.
whoopty do. after like over 4 years, i finally got an associates degree. hahaha.
congratulations to me.
whoopty do. after like over 4 years, i finally got an associates degree. hahaha.
congratulations to me.
SB
talked to him for a bit yesterday. he was asking me what i did during the rest of the week. and i told him work and school.
"what school?" he asked.
"KCC," i said.
"oh yah, that's right, i forgot you're not like 15, you're in you're 20's, huh?" SB said.
damn. that's a little harsh, but i guess it's true. i look and act 15, at least, in front of him.
joey thinks i should just go for the kill and say "so, do you have a chick or what?". . .and whatever the reply might be, just play it off. we went over a few senarios. joey is pretty slick, i must admit. (he'll be glad when he reads that).
once again, we'll see what happens.
"what school?" he asked.
"KCC," i said.
"oh yah, that's right, i forgot you're not like 15, you're in you're 20's, huh?" SB said.
damn. that's a little harsh, but i guess it's true. i look and act 15, at least, in front of him.
joey thinks i should just go for the kill and say "so, do you have a chick or what?". . .and whatever the reply might be, just play it off. we went over a few senarios. joey is pretty slick, i must admit. (he'll be glad when he reads that).
once again, we'll see what happens.
thisistheonei'mtryingtolearn.
and i keep listening to it over & over & over...
the Bm fucks me up.
just go there because i don't know how to post it.
e n j o y
CL i CK
the Bm fucks me up.
just go there because i don't know how to post it.
e n j o y
CL i CK
saturday morning.
yesterday (friday) morning i was walking to work and chris was coming down the hill on his skateboard ("pretty fast" according to him). he said i was just walking and smiling.
from here.
i guess its good that obviously i'm in a happy state of mind and happy time of life, even if i look a little goofy walking around all smily.
oh well.
from here.WOW. this is definitely good to know:
Sagittarius - January 31, 2009It's an excellent forecast for you, dear Sagittarius! Although no specific events will occur, there is huge promise of freedom for the next seven months. In your chief occupation and in your love life, a fundamental shift is about to occur. As the months unfold, you can expect to be more visionary, more creative, and perhaps more rebellious. This time, you'll be much more effective than in the past two or three years.
i'm excited. "freedom? oh, freedoom. well that's just some people talkin'..." desperado??
we will see what happens.
polka dots.
i pretty much hate polka dots. i have ONE item of clothing that has polka dots (and i didn't buy it, it was my old roommates).
what do you think about chicks in polka dots?
do you think it depends on the size? color? article of clothing? or girl?
eh, i think they're mostly all bad.
what do you think about chicks in polka dots?
do you think it depends on the size? color? article of clothing? or girl?
eh, i think they're mostly all bad.
changing underware.
so, i went out last night. which is like, a rarety for me. to go anyone where other than work, school, my house, chris' house, the gym, or maybe kona is rare. but last night, i got dressed up and went out with a friend.
the dressing up part has to be the worst. like, why does it have to be such a big deal? i pulled out a bunch of stupid clothes and had to think about it for like ever before i tried things on. and then i tried things on and had 2 guy friends tell me what looked good and what didn't. i think it was kinda weird for them, as it was for me.
okay, we concur on a dress and boots. it was decent. then one of them says, "d, you know you can't wear that underware right?"
so, now everyone is paying attention to my ass, and it's like "when will d change her underware?" eveyone will be looking and waiting to see if there is a line or not.
finally i pick out a stupid thong (and i hate thongs).
later on in the night it was annoying me so much i just took it off.
(surprisingly) i didn't have a big purse, only my clutchy-looking wallet (it's fairly large) and had to stick it in there.
my honey girl was like "just leave it in the bathroom!" (as in, like, a joke)...but i was like "hell no." (we were at my work). so i had to just stuff it in my wallet until i got home and we both thought i should definitely try and remember its in there when i get back to the bar so it doesn't come flying out on the counter top.
..the night eneded up being lots of fun, anyway. i guess i just need to get used to getting dressed up every now and then. ...although i think it's weird that people try to dress to get attention. i mean, everyone does it, but the idea of it is weird.
the end.
the dressing up part has to be the worst. like, why does it have to be such a big deal? i pulled out a bunch of stupid clothes and had to think about it for like ever before i tried things on. and then i tried things on and had 2 guy friends tell me what looked good and what didn't. i think it was kinda weird for them, as it was for me.
okay, we concur on a dress and boots. it was decent. then one of them says, "d, you know you can't wear that underware right?"
so, now everyone is paying attention to my ass, and it's like "when will d change her underware?" eveyone will be looking and waiting to see if there is a line or not.
finally i pick out a stupid thong (and i hate thongs).
later on in the night it was annoying me so much i just took it off.
(surprisingly) i didn't have a big purse, only my clutchy-looking wallet (it's fairly large) and had to stick it in there.
my honey girl was like "just leave it in the bathroom!" (as in, like, a joke)...but i was like "hell no." (we were at my work). so i had to just stuff it in my wallet until i got home and we both thought i should definitely try and remember its in there when i get back to the bar so it doesn't come flying out on the counter top.
..the night eneded up being lots of fun, anyway. i guess i just need to get used to getting dressed up every now and then. ...although i think it's weird that people try to dress to get attention. i mean, everyone does it, but the idea of it is weird.
the end.
Jack?
jack & diane. everyone knows that song right? where is my jack? i never meet anyone named jack. maybe that's why none of my ex's worked out..their names weren't jack! the only jack i can think of here is jack johnson. . .i don't think i have much of a chance.
anyway, let me know if you meet someone named jack.
anyway, let me know if you meet someone named jack.
Friday, January 30, 2009
C.C. (customer crush...)
so..CC came in tonight. invited to me to some art show at the shop he works at...it's in a week or so. ya dig!?
it's actually 330am now, so i'll just get the horoscope for "today":
Sagittarius - January 30, 2009
Don't try to force your ideas on anyone, dear Sagittarius. It is important to maintain a point of neutrality so that you can act from a stable state of mind when someone confronts you with an issue that needs to be dealt with right away. The key is to act on a situation instead of reacting to it. If you know that you are right about something, keep it to yourself. There is no need to rub it in anyone else's face and tell them that they are wrong.
from: MSN astrology
...yah, i'm usually right, but i'll just keep it to myself. ha.
it's actually 330am now, so i'll just get the horoscope for "today":
Sagittarius - January 30, 2009
Don't try to force your ideas on anyone, dear Sagittarius. It is important to maintain a point of neutrality so that you can act from a stable state of mind when someone confronts you with an issue that needs to be dealt with right away. The key is to act on a situation instead of reacting to it. If you know that you are right about something, keep it to yourself. There is no need to rub it in anyone else's face and tell them that they are wrong.
from: MSN astrology
...yah, i'm usually right, but i'll just keep it to myself. ha.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
ホノルル honolulu
Photos by: Sweet D
Photo by: KA
"the notebook"
"the notebook"this is at pipeline. we were the only people with a cooler and we struggled to carry it down the beach. we didn't notice until after we sat down that we picked like the worst spot ever. it was like a huge dip in the sand, and we sat right in the middle. everyone could see us, and we could barely see over the sand. but we didn't wanna move because everyone would stare at us even more, and we would have to move that cooler again.
we just decided, fuck it. it was a good time.
i love that green blanket. it's an old army blanket i got at savers. my parents have one we always used outdoors, so i keep that one in my bug.
the wonder years shirt: arigatou ronnie.
the bracelet: kams made one first and then inspired me to make like 10. haha.
doube chin: i should probably get photoshop.
木曜日 THURSDAY
school was fun, again, today. my turn didn't come to do my improv. in acting class, which was good because i wasn't fully ready anyway.
last night i went to a friends' house for our weekly "dinner parties". usually it's either at their place, or mine, and we just take turns cooking; sometimes we cook to different "themes". last night we had "campfire cooking". so basically we had stuff of the grill: shish-ka-bob (sp?), brats, smores...delicious. we also watched "Sandlot". good times.
Sagittarius - January 29, 2009
You may have had a hard time launching long-term personal goals lately, dear Sagittarius. Today marks a critical starting point toward attaining them. Perhaps there has been some confusion or delay in this area. You will find that things are suddenly becoming much clearer. Move forward with projects that you have been putting off lately because they have been too frustrating to deal with.
from: MSN astrology.
...not to sure what to make of this one. i was going to skip the gym (again), so maybe has something to do with that??
last night i went to a friends' house for our weekly "dinner parties". usually it's either at their place, or mine, and we just take turns cooking; sometimes we cook to different "themes". last night we had "campfire cooking". so basically we had stuff of the grill: shish-ka-bob (sp?), brats, smores...delicious. we also watched "Sandlot". good times.
Sagittarius - January 29, 2009
You may have had a hard time launching long-term personal goals lately, dear Sagittarius. Today marks a critical starting point toward attaining them. Perhaps there has been some confusion or delay in this area. You will find that things are suddenly becoming much clearer. Move forward with projects that you have been putting off lately because they have been too frustrating to deal with.
from: MSN astrology.
...not to sure what to make of this one. i was going to skip the gym (again), so maybe has something to do with that??
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
somewhere between illinois and minnesota
...so i was showing chris the random pictures on my blog, like this one...and he told me how when he was little he thought Jesus was coming through the sun beams because he was a "really religious" little kid (or something). haha. "is Jesus comin' right now?" he would ask his dad. "i think he's coming soon son..." he dad would reply, awkwardly. then chris said he would think to himself: i gotta stop being bad. he said he was always a little more paranoid about Jesus coming than happy. hahaha
an affair??
so i just came across these pictures i took a long time ago at work. (March 07) these two people (whom i don't know) were very passionately making out right in the hall of my work.
it was crazzzzy.
oh, and she is wearing a wedding ring...do most people greet their husbands like this in the middle of a work day? i would like to hope so, anyway.
it was crazzzzy.
oh, and she is wearing a wedding ring...do most people greet their husbands like this in the middle of a work day? i would like to hope so, anyway.
Photos by: Sweet D
Paul Bunyan(s) & I
Northern Minnesota
Paul & I Akeley, MN
Paul & I: Wadena (?) , MN
Paul Bunyan's sweetheart: Lucette, Hackensack, MN
Paul Bunyan, Hackensack , MN
Paul Bunyan & Babe, Bemidji, MN
日本のt－シャツ
日本語を忘れているから、時々日本語でタイプするよ。
"music is the tooth that i lost"
the funny thing is, this is a quicksilver shirt...
Photos by: Sweet D
"music is the tooth that i lost"
the funny thing is, this is a quicksilver shirt...
sui youbi.
my horoscope is scarily dead on today:
Sagittarius - January 28, 2009
Strong forces may be acting up and asking you to stand up a little straighter than usual, dear Sagittarius. Keep your shoulders back and be proud. Don't think of yourself as any less of a person just because there is disagreement between you and the people around you. Maintain high respect for yourself and your opinions. Say things with confidence; don't back down, but be prepared to fight.
yesterday was the first day i've actually given someone i know this address. it's my good frien., he's very smart, so i trust his judgments and opinions. he made this picture for me:
you can obama yourself at obamicon.me
unfortunately i haven't been able to remember much of my dreams lately...not like i used to at least. i think i will try and take some effort into remembering them as soon as i wake up.
according to How To Remember Your Dreams you should:
1. keep a complete dream journal (write down as soon as you awaken, don't wait until morning or you may forget) (write down any specific dialogs from the dream)
2. "...remind yourself as you are falling asleep that you wish to awaken fully from your dreams and remember them."
3. make "your first thought upon awakening be, 'What was I just dreaming?'" (do not move from the position you woke up in)
4. "try setting an alarm clock to wake you at a time when you are likely to be dreaming. Since our REM periods occur at approximately 90 minute intervals, good times will be multiples of 90 minutes after you go to sleep."
5. read through your dream journal at bedtime.
Sagittarius - January 28, 2009
Strong forces may be acting up and asking you to stand up a little straighter than usual, dear Sagittarius. Keep your shoulders back and be proud. Don't think of yourself as any less of a person just because there is disagreement between you and the people around you. Maintain high respect for yourself and your opinions. Say things with confidence; don't back down, but be prepared to fight.
yesterday was the first day i've actually given someone i know this address. it's my good frien., he's very smart, so i trust his judgments and opinions. he made this picture for me:
you can obama yourself at obamicon.meunfortunately i haven't been able to remember much of my dreams lately...not like i used to at least. i think i will try and take some effort into remembering them as soon as i wake up.
according to How To Remember Your Dreams you should:
1. keep a complete dream journal (write down as soon as you awaken, don't wait until morning or you may forget) (write down any specific dialogs from the dream)
2. "...remind yourself as you are falling asleep that you wish to awaken fully from your dreams and remember them."
3. make "your first thought upon awakening be, 'What was I just dreaming?'" (do not move from the position you woke up in)
4. "try setting an alarm clock to wake you at a time when you are likely to be dreaming. Since our REM periods occur at approximately 90 minute intervals, good times will be multiples of 90 minutes after you go to sleep."
5. read through your dream journal at bedtime.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
elves.
these elves have been pulled out of the boxes every year for christmas as far back as i can remember. my mom said they're from the 1960s or 1970s, but i'm not exactly sure. a lot of times my mom will hide them inside and/or on top of my dad's fish and animal mounts. it's cute.
Here is a photo of the elf i have at my house. Like mother, like daughter?
Photos by : Sweet D
Here is a photo of the elf i have at my house. Like mother, like daughter?
*update
i'm not quite sure where i had left off, but here is how the rest of my day went:
did i mention i scared joey when he came over? it was funny. he didn't even see it comin'...
after that, nap, shower, get read for work. now, today, being tuesday, i blow dried my hair, straitened it, put on eye liner and mascara...jeeeez. i think joey is right, women are crazy. would customer crush boy even give a fuck? probably not. but the point is i didn't even find out because he didn't come.
i got off work safaried with a peer to an unspecified location and then drove home. driving that truck is pretty tricky sometimes. it's like completely opposite of the bug. in one vehicle i gotta worry about running people over and in the other i gotta worry about gettin run over.
i saw my boss' new car tonight. it was really nice. like, luxury. i don't usually go for that kind of thing, i couldn't really imagine it, but i guess it would be nice. i would probably fuck it up though, and i don't know if i would really wanna buy a nice nice car and keep it a long time because changing cars is fun. maybe if you're stuck in a rut you should just get a new car. (new-used, mo betta).
on kapiolani there was some crazy shit goin down by the free way. lots of blocked off streets, sirens, fire trucks...it was nuts. maybe i should have gone done there and acted like a reporter. being a reporter seems fun. that's obviously why i'm in a newswriting class at the moment.
did i mention i scared joey when he came over? it was funny. he didn't even see it comin'...
after that, nap, shower, get read for work. now, today, being tuesday, i blow dried my hair, straitened it, put on eye liner and mascara...jeeeez. i think joey is right, women are crazy. would customer crush boy even give a fuck? probably not. but the point is i didn't even find out because he didn't come.
i got off work safaried with a peer to an unspecified location and then drove home. driving that truck is pretty tricky sometimes. it's like completely opposite of the bug. in one vehicle i gotta worry about running people over and in the other i gotta worry about gettin run over.
i saw my boss' new car tonight. it was really nice. like, luxury. i don't usually go for that kind of thing, i couldn't really imagine it, but i guess it would be nice. i would probably fuck it up though, and i don't know if i would really wanna buy a nice nice car and keep it a long time because changing cars is fun. maybe if you're stuck in a rut you should just get a new car. (new-used, mo betta).
on kapiolani there was some crazy shit goin down by the free way. lots of blocked off streets, sirens, fire trucks...it was nuts. maybe i should have gone done there and acted like a reporter. being a reporter seems fun. that's obviously why i'm in a newswriting class at the moment.
C U P S
if you don't know me, i collect cups. glass, vintage kine cups. if you have any you would like to donate, please feel free. favorite quotations are encouraged as well.
here's one for the road:
Tuesday January 27, 2009...
so i guess this blog is turning more and more to be about men. well, boys, perhaps. boys and life experiences. i guess it doesn't really matter because no one reads it...
i hung out with this dude...sunday night randomly; he's an old co-worker, somewhat "friend," who i know. so sunday we're crusin' at his place: smokin', talkin', the usual. i could sense a somewhat attractiveness that he had towards me, and that i questionably, but not fully, felt for him to.
last night he came over to my place. we're pretty much doing the same at the night before, except it gets a little more intense, a little more intimate. eventually i'm laying on my bed and he's sitting up on the bed playing the guitar. he started playing and singing a song "for me". "i'll play a song for you" were his exact words, i believe. so he did.
but the weird thing was, after waiting for a moment like this pretty much like my entire life...i felt nothing. it was like, blah. it was not someone i would particularly want to be singing for me. either way, it was nice. but there was no feeling.
despite the no feelings, we someone manage to start kissing. his lips were harder than my last kisses that i could remember. it was weird.
next, he starts touching my hair. it's soft, i know, i hear it all the time. but he wasn't like touching it gently, he was like rubbing my head roughly, in circle! ...for some reason, it just wasn't my cup of tea.
i started to "pump the breaks" here and there. i'm sure he was feeling no connection either, but, he is a guy, why would he stop? what ever happened to a good old strait make-out session? is that too middle school? why can't people my age just make out anymore without it having to go any further? am i just a prude? ...and the ride came to a halt.
i decided to make some grilled cheese sandwiches. they were even double decker!
so we talked about me blogging. he's thinks it's weird, i'm pretty sure; just as he thinks most things about me are weird.
in the end, amongst awkwardness and discussion, we are just going to leave it at grilled cheese sandwiches.
the end.
&&
this morning i went to class. i like having good, fun days at school. it would have been even better if i had not been so tired and didn't have this cold...
gee, i just thought, boy from last night is going to be catching a cold soon. ha! ...maybe i AM the devil?? (Chris, if you ever read this, you would agree)
i could go to the gym today, but i think i should let my body rest before work tonight, especially because of this cold. and besides, i climed koko head yesterday in 22.5 mins. that's pretty good for me, for now.
it's surprisingly cold today. 69 degrees! holy shit. it is cold! another good reason to stay home before work.
work: will the customer crush show up??
i hung out with this dude...sunday night randomly; he's an old co-worker, somewhat "friend," who i know. so sunday we're crusin' at his place: smokin', talkin', the usual. i could sense a somewhat attractiveness that he had towards me, and that i questionably, but not fully, felt for him to.
last night he came over to my place. we're pretty much doing the same at the night before, except it gets a little more intense, a little more intimate. eventually i'm laying on my bed and he's sitting up on the bed playing the guitar. he started playing and singing a song "for me". "i'll play a song for you" were his exact words, i believe. so he did.
but the weird thing was, after waiting for a moment like this pretty much like my entire life...i felt nothing. it was like, blah. it was not someone i would particularly want to be singing for me. either way, it was nice. but there was no feeling.
despite the no feelings, we someone manage to start kissing. his lips were harder than my last kisses that i could remember. it was weird.
next, he starts touching my hair. it's soft, i know, i hear it all the time. but he wasn't like touching it gently, he was like rubbing my head roughly, in circle! ...for some reason, it just wasn't my cup of tea.
i started to "pump the breaks" here and there. i'm sure he was feeling no connection either, but, he is a guy, why would he stop? what ever happened to a good old strait make-out session? is that too middle school? why can't people my age just make out anymore without it having to go any further? am i just a prude? ...and the ride came to a halt.
i decided to make some grilled cheese sandwiches. they were even double decker!
so we talked about me blogging. he's thinks it's weird, i'm pretty sure; just as he thinks most things about me are weird.
in the end, amongst awkwardness and discussion, we are just going to leave it at grilled cheese sandwiches.
the end.
&&
this morning i went to class. i like having good, fun days at school. it would have been even better if i had not been so tired and didn't have this cold...
gee, i just thought, boy from last night is going to be catching a cold soon. ha! ...maybe i AM the devil?? (Chris, if you ever read this, you would agree)
i could go to the gym today, but i think i should let my body rest before work tonight, especially because of this cold. and besides, i climed koko head yesterday in 22.5 mins. that's pretty good for me, for now.
it's surprisingly cold today. 69 degrees! holy shit. it is cold! another good reason to stay home before work.
work: will the customer crush show up??
A picture from April 2008:
BIRDS:
oh yeah, soon-to-be-having-cold-boy, he tried to get me to play guitar for HIM. good. thing. i. didn't.
i had just finished like 3/4 a pack of saltine crackers and lots of peanut butter and then decided to take a nap. after laying down for a few brief moments, joey called. i went to help him tow my cousins car to a side street. it was fun. and joey was "impressed" at my towing skills.
i just checked my horoscope for the day and it states:
Sagittarius - January 27, 2009
Over breakfast this morning, dear Sagittarius, you may feel a little tired and depressed. Domestic responsibilities and demands are sometimes an overload on your spirit. How about giving yourself a little vacation, a little free time just for yourself? It's vital to your morale. Perhaps you can use the time off to draw up a weekly schedule to make the workload less daunting.
funny. i did sort of have a vacation day. (well, in between work and school, anyway)
BIRDS:
oh yeah, soon-to-be-having-cold-boy, he tried to get me to play guitar for HIM. good. thing. i. didn't.
i had just finished like 3/4 a pack of saltine crackers and lots of peanut butter and then decided to take a nap. after laying down for a few brief moments, joey called. i went to help him tow my cousins car to a side street. it was fun. and joey was "impressed" at my towing skills.
i just checked my horoscope for the day and it states:
Sagittarius - January 27, 2009
Over breakfast this morning, dear Sagittarius, you may feel a little tired and depressed. Domestic responsibilities and demands are sometimes an overload on your spirit. How about giving yourself a little vacation, a little free time just for yourself? It's vital to your morale. Perhaps you can use the time off to draw up a weekly schedule to make the workload less daunting.
funny. i did sort of have a vacation day. (well, in between work and school, anyway)
Monday, January 26, 2009
chotto late demo...
is it just me, or is this weird? this is a clip of the inaugural benediction of Obama given by Reverend Joseph Lowery:
"We ask you to help us work for that day when black will not be asked to give back, when brown can stick around, when yellow will be mellow, when the red man can get ahead, man, and when white will embrace what is right."
"We ask you to help us work for that day when black will not be asked to give back, when brown can stick around, when yellow will be mellow, when the red man can get ahead, man, and when white will embrace what is right."
mosquito bites...i think.
weird things always happen to me, especially health wise. like...i got these 3 mosquito (?) bites on my KNEE at WORK! wtf!? DISGUTING.
today.
Sagittarius - January 26, 2009
Tension is apt to build to quite a high level for you if you are not careful with how you use your words, dear Sagittarius. The tricky thing to keep in mind is that forces are going to be at work that will try to push you one way and pull you another. You may be encouraging a need to focus on the collective, while others seem to be worried only about themselves. Still another force is acting that calls for outdated remedies and traditional structures that simply no longer work for your purposes. Blaze your own trail!
blaze your own trail, huh? trail blazer was once my nickname hiking jack-ass ginger. i'm sure you can guess why.
Tension is apt to build to quite a high level for you if you are not careful with how you use your words, dear Sagittarius. The tricky thing to keep in mind is that forces are going to be at work that will try to push you one way and pull you another. You may be encouraging a need to focus on the collective, while others seem to be worried only about themselves. Still another force is acting that calls for outdated remedies and traditional structures that simply no longer work for your purposes. Blaze your own trail!
blaze your own trail, huh? trail blazer was once my nickname hiking jack-ass ginger. i'm sure you can guess why.
ASL
american sign language is interesting. i feel the best way for me to practice is to look up videos on youtube. it's much easier than telling a sign from a handout.
in my entire "career" as a server (3 1/2 years) i've never served anyone Deaf until a couple days ago...right after i started taking ASL, weird, right?! this is where i learned how to sign "will you go on a date with me?"
in this class we have to do a research paper, topic of our choice, and i think i want to do it on signing babies. i've always been fascinated with babies, and i've been pretty obsessed with the "your baby can read" thing on tv, which i think sort of goes hand in hand with signing babies. (my kids will definitely be signing and reading. ha)
in my entire "career" as a server (3 1/2 years) i've never served anyone Deaf until a couple days ago...right after i started taking ASL, weird, right?! this is where i learned how to sign "will you go on a date with me?"
in this class we have to do a research paper, topic of our choice, and i think i want to do it on signing babies. i've always been fascinated with babies, and i've been pretty obsessed with the "your baby can read" thing on tv, which i think sort of goes hand in hand with signing babies. (my kids will definitely be signing and reading. ha)
gi-ta-
the most recent song i just started to try and learn today is "miss me" by joe purdy. Bm always fucks me up though. and my singing voice sucks, i'm pretty sure of it. i wish i had the balls to record myself and let people watch it.
first i have to master the song though...
one of my goals of life is still to play at kona brewing on open mic. night s o m e d a y ...even if it's only one song.
i guess i could use this as the "i want.." for acting class, but really, what would the speech be? "i practice guitar because i want to play someday on open mic. night" that would be the jist of it. hahaha.
first i have to master the song though...
one of my goals of life is still to play at kona brewing on open mic. night s o m e d a y ...even if it's only one song.
i guess i could use this as the "i want.." for acting class, but really, what would the speech be? "i practice guitar because i want to play someday on open mic. night" that would be the jist of it. hahaha.
acting class.
so far, so good. i haven't actually had to do any acting yet, or get up in front of the class yet, but i will tomorrow. we have to do a mini-speech on something we've wanted, or want, and the stuggles to get it. i seriously couldn't think of much. kaimi said i should do it on "i want SB", which is true, but most people probably wouldn't get it and would probably just think i'm crazy.
seriously all i want is to just be happy. but i think that's a little hard to narrow down.
so...chris and i thought it would be a good idea to do "i want to be healthy". because it's true, and it's something i'm actually working on right now, and it does make me happy, which is my main goal.
i always try to collaborate with others on ideas, such as this. people can really open up your eyes, ya know?
seriously all i want is to just be happy. but i think that's a little hard to narrow down.
so...chris and i thought it would be a good idea to do "i want to be healthy". because it's true, and it's something i'm actually working on right now, and it does make me happy, which is my main goal.
i always try to collaborate with others on ideas, such as this. people can really open up your eyes, ya know?
customer crush...
so, there's this newww boy i've been checking out. it seems all i ever do is check out boys and grow crushes, but oh well. anyway, he's been coming in every tuesday and saturday for the past few weeks. we've talked here and there. he works at the tattoo shop like half a block away, so probably thats why he comes in all the time... at least it gives me something to look forward to on tuesdays and saturdays at work.
he knows i'm taking an ASL class and always asks he if i've learned anything new...and he says he known dirty sign if i'd like to learn it... so i was just thinking of signing "let's go on a date"...and see what happens. maybe i'm way to foward, or corny, or desperate. i doubt i'll get the balls to do it, and even if i DID do it, would i actually admit to doing it?! i d k ... it would be better if he could just do that to me instead, but guys are just retarded and can't think of nice things like that.
he always comes in as a third wheel.
valentine's day is on a saturday this year. ...will he come in...?? i will find out then.
he knows i'm taking an ASL class and always asks he if i've learned anything new...and he says he known dirty sign if i'd like to learn it... so i was just thinking of signing "let's go on a date"...and see what happens. maybe i'm way to foward, or corny, or desperate. i doubt i'll get the balls to do it, and even if i DID do it, would i actually admit to doing it?! i d k ... it would be better if he could just do that to me instead, but guys are just retarded and can't think of nice things like that.
he always comes in as a third wheel.
valentine's day is on a saturday this year. ...will he come in...?? i will find out then.
SB
so me and joey were spying on SB through the reflective window in the office so he couldn't see us and joey remembered he had a pair of binoculars in his van. so, i spied on SB. joey *made me do it in front of him, so he's see me watching him. then he would definitely know i like him...and then i should just wave, like it's kind of a joke. . . which it IS! but anyways, of course i did it, and he waved, and i waved, and he drove his patrons back to waikiki.
*made: not really, i pretty much just do whatever joey says, according to chris and the other boys. which, i wouldn't say isn't untrue.
*made: not really, i pretty much just do whatever joey says, according to chris and the other boys. which, i wouldn't say isn't untrue.
peanut butter & pickle sandwhiches...
try one. just be careful for the ecoli in peanut butter at the moment.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
SB
1-10-09 no sign of SB yesterday...guess he had off. i'm trying to think of a really good prank for him. haha
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
"HO BOD"
so oska and i are working on our "ho bod". of course i still haven't actually started working out or exercising yet, but i haven't been eating out...so i'm taking baby steps. ha.
i just got some inspriration by looking at an old picture of myself from when i used to be very fit.
can i do it? can i do it? only time will tell.
i have yet to take my "before" picture like i was going to do at start of the year. well, i'll get around to it soon enough. maybe tomorrow.
1-26-09 i've actually started going to the gym...and i've been doing a good job of eating at home and eating fairly healthy...except for last night...i ate wayyy too many mini-snickers bars. grr.
i just got some inspriration by looking at an old picture of myself from when i used to be very fit.
can i do it? can i do it? only time will tell.
i have yet to take my "before" picture like i was going to do at start of the year. well, i'll get around to it soon enough. maybe tomorrow.
1-26-09 i've actually started going to the gym...and i've been doing a good job of eating at home and eating fairly healthy...except for last night...i ate wayyy too many mini-snickers bars. grr.
sometimes i want to move...
because i still feel very creeped out and scared of my ex. i really should be more cautious.
wood block.
1/6/09
so i have a really really dope car. and i have a sticker inside that says "ass, gas, or grass, nobody rides for free"...and for some dumb reason i decided i need a tally-marker-wood-block. (for boys i kiss in the car, of course.) and here's the thing: i had the car since september or so, and yet to have any tally marks...
it's official (well, almost, i didn't pay yet) but i did get signed up for some classes!
i spent all day "career exploring" on the internet and it really opened my eyes to some jobs i've never even considered but seem to be very intrigued by. i'm beginning to think i will perhaps start taking a more journalism/communication/writing focus in school.
it's at least my newest ideas at the moment, but it's gotten me really excited for school.
my mom agrees a "travel writer" sounds like a wonderful job me for. i don't know anyyyyything about it though, so it seems a bit intimidating. sometimes i feel like maybe i sometimes want to focus more on teaching because in terms a number of jobs there are for that occupation, teachers are always needed. (eww, that "always" to the left looks like the one on the always pads package. gross.
...then again, maybe i should design packages. boxes, packages, wrappers...that sort of thing. i guess that would be a more design focus, but who knows.
i got two weird bites today. the one on my foot has two holes, like a spider bite maybe. the one on my forearm is large, like the size of a dime and largely bumped up. the one of my foot hurts, whereas the one of my forearm itches a little, but mostly has no feeling. weird things ALWAYS happen to my skin. i hate it. i think my mom said it runs in our family...i feel sorry for my kids...haha, jk.
i just got a weird spasm in my leg. i think i read earlier on the internet that sometimes if a spider bite is poisionous then it may cause muscle spasms. i really hope it's just from going up and down stairs at work today though.
i wonder what this has in store for tomorrow...
Sagittarius - January 7, 2009A group with which you're involved, dear Sagittarius, may want to discuss planning a trip of some kind, perhaps to a convention. The drive to expand your horizons is very strong today, and therefore trips such as this or other opportunities to learn and grow can be especially appealing. You might come up with a few ideas of your own that you prefer to pursue alone. Give it some thought!
unfortunately i haven't heard any really great quotes or been insprised by anything so much the past couple of days.
sweet d
oh my god, something is on tv that's showing "how to pat down your kids for drugs incognito hug". hahah. good, it was a joke.
i spent all day "career exploring" on the internet and it really opened my eyes to some jobs i've never even considered but seem to be very intrigued by. i'm beginning to think i will perhaps start taking a more journalism/communication/writing focus in school.
it's at least my newest ideas at the moment, but it's gotten me really excited for school.
my mom agrees a "travel writer" sounds like a wonderful job me for. i don't know anyyyyything about it though, so it seems a bit intimidating. sometimes i feel like maybe i sometimes want to focus more on teaching because in terms a number of jobs there are for that occupation, teachers are always needed. (eww, that "always" to the left looks like the one on the always pads package. gross.
...then again, maybe i should design packages. boxes, packages, wrappers...that sort of thing. i guess that would be a more design focus, but who knows.
i got two weird bites today. the one on my foot has two holes, like a spider bite maybe. the one on my forearm is large, like the size of a dime and largely bumped up. the one of my foot hurts, whereas the one of my forearm itches a little, but mostly has no feeling. weird things ALWAYS happen to my skin. i hate it. i think my mom said it runs in our family...i feel sorry for my kids...haha, jk.
i just got a weird spasm in my leg. i think i read earlier on the internet that sometimes if a spider bite is poisionous then it may cause muscle spasms. i really hope it's just from going up and down stairs at work today though.
i wonder what this has in store for tomorrow...
Sagittarius - January 7, 2009A group with which you're involved, dear Sagittarius, may want to discuss planning a trip of some kind, perhaps to a convention. The drive to expand your horizons is very strong today, and therefore trips such as this or other opportunities to learn and grow can be especially appealing. You might come up with a few ideas of your own that you prefer to pursue alone. Give it some thought!
unfortunately i haven't heard any really great quotes or been insprised by anything so much the past couple of days.
sweet d
oh my god, something is on tv that's showing "how to pat down your kids for drugs incognito hug". hahah. good, it was a joke.
funny how things work out...
it was slow when i came into work tonight. the night was just beginning. i saw a lady standing near the front whom caught my eye. i know her, i thought. her face was so familiar. i walked towards her as she also looked me in the face; i smiled shyly. does she know me too? i took a deep breathe and knew the only way i would even know was if i asked. "did you used to live in north dakota?" i questioned her. "yes" she replied. "diane whiteside" i said, "from across the street".
she had been living there for a few months and had came in to eat last night, but had forgotten her credit card. her son and her came back by to pick it up this evening...
it had been at least 11 years since i had seen her, but i knew it was her. i feel i have a keen sense of remembering faces, because i look at peoples' faces a lot. people are interesting.
she had been living there for a few months and had came in to eat last night, but had forgotten her credit card. her son and her came back by to pick it up this evening...
it had been at least 11 years since i had seen her, but i knew it was her. i feel i have a keen sense of remembering faces, because i look at peoples' faces a lot. people are interesting.
Monday, January 5, 2009
it was delicious:
a salad i made today:
i pretty much just threw things i had in the fridge together and made a: lettuce, black olive, tomato, italian dressing and parmesean cheese salad today.
i pretty much just threw things i had in the fridge together and made a: lettuce, black olive, tomato, italian dressing and parmesean cheese salad today.
so me and kevin were watching comedy central and it made me think of dane cooke, which in turn made me think of the name "daine" which was printed on all of my high school graduation announcements and memorabilia in stead of "diane".
joey & kevin say i have competition now for SB. a new, cute girl just started working on his boat. i surrender! jk...
"you're up a creek"
what does that even mean?
kevin was wondering, as am i.
obviously i've been hanging out with my cousin, kevin, quite a lot.
good news: i got into 2 of the 3 classes i was hoping for. math & acting. chee hoo. maybe i shouldn't get so excited because if i do i'm sure it will probably turn out shitty.
studying dialects sounds very fun. obviously i would need to travel to hear different dialects...hopefully. and i would just meet and talk to people. fun & easy. something to look into.
i'm trying to decide if i should pick up a linguistics class or not, too.
i've been busy, mostly with work, but i've also been keeping myself busy trying to actually cook and keep up the cleaning and figuring out my school stuff. i feel like the more i see myself get done and be productive about, the better i feel, even if i only sleep 6 or less hours. i like it.
i'll be working in the exercise...eventually.
joey & kevin say i have competition now for SB. a new, cute girl just started working on his boat. i surrender! jk...
"you're up a creek"
what does that even mean?
kevin was wondering, as am i.
obviously i've been hanging out with my cousin, kevin, quite a lot.
good news: i got into 2 of the 3 classes i was hoping for. math & acting. chee hoo. maybe i shouldn't get so excited because if i do i'm sure it will probably turn out shitty.
studying dialects sounds very fun. obviously i would need to travel to hear different dialects...hopefully. and i would just meet and talk to people. fun & easy. something to look into.
i'm trying to decide if i should pick up a linguistics class or not, too.
i've been busy, mostly with work, but i've also been keeping myself busy trying to actually cook and keep up the cleaning and figuring out my school stuff. i feel like the more i see myself get done and be productive about, the better i feel, even if i only sleep 6 or less hours. i like it.
i'll be working in the exercise...eventually.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
singing jogger.
c o m i n g s o o n . . .
1/6/09 okay, so i didn't hear anything this morning, but i've definitely heard it like twice this wee. "hearing what?" you ask? ...the singing jogger!
i've even seen hime a time or two singing his heart out down the street around an early 7am. he's young, in shape, and he wakes me up in the morning!
i will definitely work on getting perhaps some video footage, or song lyrics of what he's singing.
1/12/09 so i'm quite dissapointed. i happened to randomly wake up around 645am this morning and thought that today would be the day i'd get some video of this guy. i took off the screen and the jelousies from the window and waited until around 715am...but he didn't show. today was the first day of school for many...maybe he's in school. maybe he doesn't jog on mondays??
1-26-09 seriously, since i've tried to actually catch this kid on tape, i haven't heard him ONCE! is he on to me? maybe he started school...maybe he has a new route... maybe i'm too tired to actually hear him in the morning anymore. i d k. boo.
1/6/09 okay, so i didn't hear anything this morning, but i've definitely heard it like twice this wee. "hearing what?" you ask? ...the singing jogger!
i've even seen hime a time or two singing his heart out down the street around an early 7am. he's young, in shape, and he wakes me up in the morning!
i will definitely work on getting perhaps some video footage, or song lyrics of what he's singing.
1/12/09 so i'm quite dissapointed. i happened to randomly wake up around 645am this morning and thought that today would be the day i'd get some video of this guy. i took off the screen and the jelousies from the window and waited until around 715am...but he didn't show. today was the first day of school for many...maybe he's in school. maybe he doesn't jog on mondays??
1-26-09 seriously, since i've tried to actually catch this kid on tape, i haven't heard him ONCE! is he on to me? maybe he started school...maybe he has a new route... maybe i'm too tired to actually hear him in the morning anymore. i d k. boo.
things are not always what they seem.
that's sort of the message i got from this crazy dream i was having before my phone went off and trav came over. i told it to him so that hopefully i won't forget it.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
i was too lazy, out of my head, and tired to write anything yesterday. i mean, all in all, it was a good day. work was fun as usual, saw SB for only a few seconds, but he did say hi and ask about my trip.
the rest of the day was filled with more it's always sunny in philadelphia and friends. it was fun...just...i want to feel better. i feel kind of loser-ish at the moment.
this morning was a new day.
i was glad to get my mail and bills somewhat in order after being gone for so long. i have a lot to pay off, but it shouldn't be too hard. i just need to have a positive attitude about going to work as much as i don't want to go sometimes. if i hate it that bad i can just find a new job, it's just that this job makes pretty decent cash.
i thought about the whole maybe not going to school this term...maybe it will be okay if i don't. that will give me more time to volunteer. at least at a school or two to see how much i'm diggin' being in and around the classroom. there's also the library, and the homeless shelter.
although i was fairly productive this morning i still had a weird feeling in my head. i think i was still a little tired, but also like i wanted to cry. it could almost be that time of the month...i don't know. i was doing a lot of thinking about my family and how i miss them already.
i watched 'the terminal' and that made me miss japan, too.
i want another vacation...to okinawa...
jesus, i just need a job where i can travel around.
Sagittarius - January 3, 2009You might find that others are adopting a bit of a me-first attitude that doesn't quite sit right with you, dear Sagittarius. You may need to knock on their door, wake them up, and say, "Hey, what about everybody else?" Try not to whine as you deliver this message. A desperate-sounding attitude will get you nowhere. Be friendly and jovial in your approach, and the world will be at your feet.
...i'm not quite sure what this could be about. maybe with work? maybe with home and the cleaning up around the house? maybe about me whinning about missing craig?
i'm gonna listen to "every man has a molly" now.
ps. i need to get rid of my damned truck. i need the money and to get it off the street.
the rest of the day was filled with more it's always sunny in philadelphia and friends. it was fun...just...i want to feel better. i feel kind of loser-ish at the moment.
this morning was a new day.
i was glad to get my mail and bills somewhat in order after being gone for so long. i have a lot to pay off, but it shouldn't be too hard. i just need to have a positive attitude about going to work as much as i don't want to go sometimes. if i hate it that bad i can just find a new job, it's just that this job makes pretty decent cash.
i thought about the whole maybe not going to school this term...maybe it will be okay if i don't. that will give me more time to volunteer. at least at a school or two to see how much i'm diggin' being in and around the classroom. there's also the library, and the homeless shelter.
although i was fairly productive this morning i still had a weird feeling in my head. i think i was still a little tired, but also like i wanted to cry. it could almost be that time of the month...i don't know. i was doing a lot of thinking about my family and how i miss them already.
i watched 'the terminal' and that made me miss japan, too.
i want another vacation...to okinawa...
jesus, i just need a job where i can travel around.
Sagittarius - January 3, 2009You might find that others are adopting a bit of a me-first attitude that doesn't quite sit right with you, dear Sagittarius. You may need to knock on their door, wake them up, and say, "Hey, what about everybody else?" Try not to whine as you deliver this message. A desperate-sounding attitude will get you nowhere. Be friendly and jovial in your approach, and the world will be at your feet.
...i'm not quite sure what this could be about. maybe with work? maybe with home and the cleaning up around the house? maybe about me whinning about missing craig?
i'm gonna listen to "every man has a molly" now.
ps. i need to get rid of my damned truck. i need the money and to get it off the street.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
it was the first day of the year. i didn't get much accomplished. definitly not how i sought to spend my first day of the year, but it was a beautiful day so i can't ask for much more. i finished cleaning up a few more things here and there, but never actually made it to the grocery store.
and i figured out why i can't sign up for my classes online, so i'll have to go down to the school monday to try and get it all straitened out, but a couple of my classes are already full. so maybe so much for the school plan happening. it's hard to call, yet. also, i have to see if my financial aid is ligit or not.
the diet definitely has not started yet.
when i made it an effort to definitely act more girl simply by having a good posture a friend said "ew, stop d, you're freaking me out". i guess me being girly is werid.
i tried working on the book today but i was just not really feelin' it. the time of day was all off. i now know i need to go mid-day or before for just the right light.
in a matter of 7 hours or so, i will be back at my "fun job" since before leaving for a vacation about a month ago. i will be seeing "Scuba Boy", we'll just say "S.B." for short. he is definitely not the type i would regularly be attracted to; he's much too "Ambercrombie look" for my usual liking. anyways, he has a nice bod and seems really friendly and he's definitely one of the highlights of my everyday normal fridays. one thing that bothers me a little about him is that he's 29. i'm 23. that's not that huge of a difference, it's just not what i'm used to i suppose. i have no idea if he would even be interested...it's just a crush. and me and joey stay occupied all day trying to plot out how i am going to actually talk to him that day. it's sort of disgusting, but something i look forward to.
i have yet to take a picture of myself for the start of this year. maybe tomorrow.
according to msn.com here is what this month has to hold:
and i figured out why i can't sign up for my classes online, so i'll have to go down to the school monday to try and get it all straitened out, but a couple of my classes are already full. so maybe so much for the school plan happening. it's hard to call, yet. also, i have to see if my financial aid is ligit or not.
the diet definitely has not started yet.
when i made it an effort to definitely act more girl simply by having a good posture a friend said "ew, stop d, you're freaking me out". i guess me being girly is werid.
i tried working on the book today but i was just not really feelin' it. the time of day was all off. i now know i need to go mid-day or before for just the right light.
in a matter of 7 hours or so, i will be back at my "fun job" since before leaving for a vacation about a month ago. i will be seeing "Scuba Boy", we'll just say "S.B." for short. he is definitely not the type i would regularly be attracted to; he's much too "Ambercrombie look" for my usual liking. anyways, he has a nice bod and seems really friendly and he's definitely one of the highlights of my everyday normal fridays. one thing that bothers me a little about him is that he's 29. i'm 23. that's not that huge of a difference, it's just not what i'm used to i suppose. i have no idea if he would even be interested...it's just a crush. and me and joey stay occupied all day trying to plot out how i am going to actually talk to him that day. it's sort of disgusting, but something i look forward to.
i have yet to take a picture of myself for the start of this year. maybe tomorrow.
according to msn.com here is what this month has to hold:
Sagittarius - January 2009New Year's Day and the day after may be frustrating because you'll be restless and bored but stuck in the house for some reason. You'll be more active on January 3 and in a better frame of mind. Expect to be busy and pulled in many directions on January 7 and 8. You may not a get a lot done because of interruptions. Don't plan too many activities outside the home during the Full Moon on January 10. January 11 and 12 will be lighthearted and entertaining, but expect to get serious the next day when you get saddled with extra responsibilities. Be careful and methodical with projects on January 13 and 14. Get together with your friends for an evening of conversation and relaxation on January 16 and 17. Your attitude will be optimistic and hopeful with the Moon in your sign from January 20 to 22. Ideas will be plentiful and will help you solve problems. A loved one may throw you a few curve balls that you won't see coming on January 22. Make plans for the future on January 23, especially if you forgot to make resolutions earlier. A serious issue with your partner or a friend on January 24 will disrupt your plans. After the New Moon Solar Eclipse in Aquarius on January 26, you'll be inspired to make some changes and look into new opportunities over the next six months. You'll be irritable and act erratically on January 29 because someone will disappoint you.
we'll see how it all pans out...
it's dec 31, 2008 at 11:57:48 according to the countdown in times square on channel 9. i can hear the barrade of fireworks crazily going off many places outside of my room. i had planned to spend new years this way, alone with the t.v. i spent the whole day cleaning, to start the new year out on a new clean slate. the ball just dropped. it wasn't very exciting...but how i would give much to be back in new york at the moment. anyways, back to 2009 and such. it's time, i feel, to try and start getting back up on the ball. haha. carson daily said "wow, there's a lot of making out going on". i know who'd i be making out with if i was there. as does he.
i'm going to take a long hard look at myself tomorrow morning and decide exactly who i want to be. i have come up with a couple things i know i should being working on. the drinking: it needs to be more tamed. beer guts are gross, it just doesn't feel good. being more active will go hand in hand with the not-drinking. of course, eating healthy, too.
basically, i'm broke. this will be a good way to save money and pay off all my bills. my sister is going to be sending me some make-up. sadly but truely, i will make better money if i'm wearing make-up and look better, so i will also most likely start sporting a new push-up bra when needed.
it's time to focus: on things i enjoy and what i want to do, explore ideas, and decide which path in the direction of school i would like to go. this term shall hold a few different classes...one needed and two for fun; as long as i can figure out when the hell sign-ups are. and do good in these classes.
i do not plan on falling in love anytime soon. it seems i fall in too love often, with men in far away places. the last will be a hard one to surpass. of course i can admire men, but perhaps from only afar. it is now time to focus on ME.
i will finish my cup book.
volunteer at a few different places i have had in mind.
try and finally start surfing again.
i suppose i shall take a picture of myself in the morning. for reference to where i am today. and what is yet to come.
happy new year.
sweet d
"they don't love you like i love you..."
i'm going to take a long hard look at myself tomorrow morning and decide exactly who i want to be. i have come up with a couple things i know i should being working on. the drinking: it needs to be more tamed. beer guts are gross, it just doesn't feel good. being more active will go hand in hand with the not-drinking. of course, eating healthy, too.
basically, i'm broke. this will be a good way to save money and pay off all my bills. my sister is going to be sending me some make-up. sadly but truely, i will make better money if i'm wearing make-up and look better, so i will also most likely start sporting a new push-up bra when needed.
it's time to focus: on things i enjoy and what i want to do, explore ideas, and decide which path in the direction of school i would like to go. this term shall hold a few different classes...one needed and two for fun; as long as i can figure out when the hell sign-ups are. and do good in these classes.
i do not plan on falling in love anytime soon. it seems i fall in too love often, with men in far away places. the last will be a hard one to surpass. of course i can admire men, but perhaps from only afar. it is now time to focus on ME.
i will finish my cup book.
volunteer at a few different places i have had in mind.
try and finally start surfing again.
i suppose i shall take a picture of myself in the morning. for reference to where i am today. and what is yet to come.
happy new year.
sweet d
"they don't love you like i love you..."
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