mmmonday.

another article: jet program.


gave olive a bath. i don't think she's too happy.


i have a problem. with procrastination and math.


i think a good job for me right now would be a maid. like, you really don't have to talk to people much, just clean...
not at a hotel, but at like a rich person's house.

but of course i'm just going to keep my same job, as always.


Sagittarius - Oct. 19, 2009

Have love matters been causing you excessive strain for a while now, dear Sagittarius? If so, you can expect that to end now. Someone you love very deeply reciprocates your feelings and, if there are differences between you, is very anxious to resolve them and look toward the future. This relationship will probably succeed if you go in with eyes wide open. Don't have unrealistic expectations of your partner. Learn to love human flaws as much as perfections.

MSN Astrology

...ha. not for me, not today.

sun, sunflower seeds, and such on sunday.

off to watch a game of baseball down the road of d.a.b.'s new man's team.
(and further put off my math)

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good thing i had on the orange nail polish since the teams color was orange.


um...gonna put off math until tomorrow.


click: band of gold.


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i had definitely forogt how nice to take pleasure in the simple things of life like laying in the sun and jumping in a pool on a hot day.

even understanding a math problem is nice (but not for today).

saddddddderday.

last night was a fuzzy haze of writing. finally finished a school piece just now. while writing this health article i sat at home and drank coke and ate pudding. and isn't it ironic, don't ya think?

i'm gonna watch a movie and then take a nap before work tonight.

i'm not even going to think about math, even though i should. i'm just gonna put it off until tomorrow. and do a lot of extra credit.

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for as much as i was dreading work it wasn't bad at all. pretty cruise night. most people dug my orange nail polish.

had some charelston chews with b-saucy afta work. charelston chews candy bars always remind me of road tripping as a kid and gas stations. i'd always get mountain dew and charelston chews and mini-chocolate donuts. ...not much has changed i suppose.
reminds me of my pops, too.

my parents are going to get me a ticket to be in minnesota for christmas. :)
i'll probably plan for about a week (or so). i'm not planning any long layovers or too many small stops anywhere...just want to see my family.

have you forgotten?

...or was it never really there?

facts of friday.

woke up at about 6 a.m. this friday morning. had an appointment for an interview and then did a couple random interviews. this was the first time i just chose random people, so it was kind of funny like scanning the area and thinking "hm...who do i want to talk to..." .

somehow i'm always shopping for something so i went to the store and got some stuff...decided to make the load of sweets. more worms 'n dirt, orange jello which i plan into making into pumpkin and leaf jigglers, and also also bought stuff to make baked apples.

painted my nails orange.

took a nap.

woke up just before the sunset so decided to grab my camera and check it out since i'm rarely free during that time.

two kids playing alongside the ocean.


made some bacon wrapped mushrooms on the grill for one and plan on spending the rest of the night writing a story for the school paper.

of the people i would like to see- impossible. millions of miles away (j.rak) literally and then some, metaphorically. other than that, i'd just like to be alone for the night.

oh yah, i've been hearing a lot of the singing jogger recently and saw him today when leaving the house at 7 a.m. footage, footage...i need footage.

blank.

click: living in a tree.


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hmm..what's to say about today?
didn't have class but went to school for an interview and a meeting. went to work, got off really early and spent what i made at savers. got some good stuff, as usual.


blank.




blank.



my mind is blank.

i hate math.

after driving around looking for the building f o r e v e r and then driving over some concrete that o.d.'s company had been laying when i had went to work with him (weird), i made my way to the honolulu consulate of japan. the atmosphere was very japanesey. a japanese show was playing on the television, everyone there was japanese...it almost seemed as though i was back in japan for a moment.


found a penny from 1990 today in class.


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i do hate math. because it's really confusing and my teacher won't explain it.


it was no wonder i was a bitchy chocolate fiend a couple of days ago since it is indeed that time of the month again.
with a samuel adams' october fest beer at hand, i was just watching a commercial about breast cancer and it made me start tearing up. and then it showed a lady with her best friend and it made me miss j.rak. and my family. and i thought about anything sad and just let it all out for the extent of alexi murdoch's song, orange sky. ...the video makes me want to do some traveling.
*breathe.


click: all my days.

on this day in 1942...

columbus sailed the ocean blue.

article four.

click: find a friend over coffee.

(again, not the title i had and i still like mine better, but oh well.)

i like october.

and october always reminds me of around the time when i first moved here. i listened to a lot of matt costa then and saw matt costa in a small venue in china town.

click: astair.




click: fire and rain.



it's overcast and the wind is finally picking up, thankfully.



it was first time to ever try cooking gyoza. i just bought the frozen ones and tried steaming half and pan-frying the other half. the friend one actually caught on fire for a minute so i just lifted it up and blew it out; still good. turned out...eh, aight. i think i had the heat too high...and i don't know why it caught on fire.
the steamed ones i didn't really stirs around in the pan so the bottoms got stuck and they were kind of mushy, but tasted good.
a couple of lessons learned.


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really, really, really, really, really had one of those nights at work when i want a new job. i hated it, but i made pretty good money. ...that is a predicament.

the moon was nice tonight.

your egos is pregos.

my friend called me at 6:30 saturday morning and i picked up...well, because i wasn't quite asleep.
her: diane, i knew you would be awake.
me: i had just got up to use the restroom, but coudln't get back to sleep.
her: what are you doing next summer?
me: next summer? i don't know...probably be here.
her: good, you can help me babysit. i'm pregnant.

...and that's pretty much how the conversation went.

not too many people really close to me (i.e. best friends, sister, etc.) has even been prego...until now. just found out one of my good friends is havin a bebe; i'm excited. (except for the fact that we always discussed being pregnant together, as all girls do...but, she can always have more kids ;] )
and i cannot reveal who it is just yet because it's her news to tell, not mine.

omg. i can see how bad this is going to get already. everytime i go to a store now i'm gonna want to look at baby stuff for her and try to find like retro baby stuff at savers.
and baby crafts to make, too.
ohhh...baby shower! the planning starts now.


other than that...i decided to make eggs, bacon and toast for breakfast. (the previous blog probably had something to do with that)
and shared some with a friend.


i was thinking about going to an optional journalism lecture at school today at 9 a.m...but, well, it's 10:56 a.m. and here i am.

so i just felt like watching the wonder year's episode where kevin really doesn't understand math becasue i can relate... instead of popping in the dvd i tried looking it up on youtube, but the only thing that came up is a bunch of video of daica mckellar (winnie) and her book of "math doesn't suck" she wrote. she's a mathmatician.


click: drinking for 11.

eggs, bacon, chips or cheese.

...which would you rather please?
we used to play this game when you would hold another persons hands/wrists and spin them around. and one would ask, "eggs, bacon, chips or cheese...which would you rather please?" ...which would be like the speed of the ride.

fired-ish on friday.

click: motorcycle drive by.


Sagittarius - Oct. 9, 2009

It's a good day for you, dear Sagittarius, to put some of those creative ideas to work. Pull out your favorite craft supplies and have some fun exploring color and design. If you have children, consider including them in on the activities. It may amaze you to listen to the incredible ideas and innovative thoughts your own kids have that you never thought of. If you don't have an "idea box" where old bottles, egg cartons, odd buttons, ribbons, and scraps of colored paper can collect for times like this, start one today!


MSN Astrology

...crafts for friday night, perhaps?! ...i have been wanting to make a fall wreath.


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so i went to my day job and saw that i was whited-off the schedule and not working...wtf, right?
i mean, seriously, you could have told me before i came in.
so i sent my manager a nasty text and told him to stop putting me on the schedule since he pretty much did anyway.
he's a duche and i was pretty over it, so it works out, i guess.

after having a cigarette and walking back home i caught up on a million emails and putting all of my pictures i have saved to cd's on an external harddrive and made a wreath. (all while listening to "dd's faves" playlist. it's pretty old, but definitely has some classics.)

i used all kine extra fabric i had. it's pretty fally, so i like the colors.

i think my mom and sis and i made these when i was a kid.
here's the directions i used: no sew fabric wreath.

Photo by: Sweet D




i also listened to about an hour-long podcast about stochasticity- which basically is randomness.
"coinsidences" you cannot explain is just an example of stochasticity.
[which pretty much goes against the way i've always looked at things. i also look at coinsidences as "signs" or just a way of showing that fate, if there is such a thing, is going in it's right direction, or something...]
but basically, this thoery (or whatever it is), says everything is random.

although the craziest, rarest of things might happen, there's always that very, very, very slim chance it will happen, and it has to be someone.

according to the podcast:
ex1)
1985-1986, the same lady wins lottery two years in a row. -crazy, right?! (i so thought at first.) 1 in 17.3 trillion chance of it happening. but it does happen, and more often that you would think. there were many cases in the past were the same person has won the lottery two years in a row, one guy even won two lotteries in the same day!

ex2)
ok, pretend you are a blade of grass amongst all the blades of grass on the golf course. when the golf ball gets hit, it eventually lands somewhere on the grass and of course those blades whom the ball does land is probably like "oh my god! why me out of all these blades of grass?!" ...but, again, it has to be someone.

ex3) (this is one pretty crazy)
laura buxton was a 10 year old in europe with a red balloon. on the balloon she wrote her name, address and “please return” on it. it could have went up and popped or got stuck in a tree, but no, it traveled south…passed millions of people…140 miles away…and lands in a different girls yard on opposite ends of the country.
a man found it almost throwing it away until he saw the message on the balloon. he did indeed return it to a "laura buxton", but a different laura buxton. this laura buxton lived in this town across the country and was also 10 years old. the second laura contacted the first laura and the two became friends. what they found most odd was that when they met they looked similar and both were wearing pink jumpers and jeans. both had a three year old black lab, grey bunnies and both brought their guinea to pigs with them… and had similar birthmarks.

this is just too crazy too believe, right?
fate? a miracle? or all just chance?


...according to those on the pocast, this is just another case of stochasticity.
i don't know.


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we met up at the bar,
darren and i.
i made it a point,
we both would drive.

it wasn't bad,
small kine fun,
but in the back of my head,
another image still hung.

sometimes i'd draw a blank
when that familiar song came on:
what am i doing in this place?
what's the conversation?

there weren't any butterflies
when we touched our lips,
more like a numb, mediocre
kind of kiss.

just as everthing else,
it is what it is.



...we will just have to see where life takes me from here.
iddnk. (i definitely do not know.)

shiranai yo.

i randomly decided to swim some laps yesterday. felt good.
and beach in nalo, always a good time.


could it be i don't have anything eles to say?
perhaps.


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today i'm wearing the weird japanese t-shirt. (to be posted afta afta)
it was quite a decision to wear this "outfit" i've thrown together today. i mean, i like it, but i do think it's a little strange...and if i think it's strange, then most people will most definitely think it's strange.
but oh well.
i thought about how kaimi always says you can where whatever you want as long as you like it and it feels good.
and i'm wearing it.

here's what it says:

BE IN SPIRITS

Your smile makes me happy

Casual wear for people who love dogs
a dog will always be your best friend
refresh one's body and mind
your innocent smile encourages me try
to again. the warm sunlight

SARAHABRAND
I have to smile myself. because i love you.



....the funniest part is i just got to school and saw alexa (alex) randomly in the computer lab and he looked me up and down with a puzzled and somewhat disgusted face..

tu-day.

click: go your own way.


Sagittarius - October 6, 2009

Don't be surprised if you don't spend too much time at home today. All signs are that you're more likely to be out and about, shopping, visiting, maybe attending a special dinner or concert. There are a number of family activities that you won't want to miss, dear Sagittarius, so don't let the people in your life get too caught up in watching sports on TV!


MSN Astrology

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homework. school.
somehow got a 36/50 on the last math exam. wayyy better than i thought considering i guessed on pretty much everything.


i feel like my stomach is getting in the way. ewww.
and yet, what do i do about it?
nothing.

i feel bad for my poor baby olive. she has to wear the neck cone for a couple of weeks and she is sore from her surgery. she's been just falling alseep in my lap and she hasn't done that since she was a small kitten.
her and i were sitting in the wheel chair so i just wheeled around if i had to move not to disturb olly.

life changes.

...for olive.

Photos by: Sweet D




i'm sorry...so sorry...

yah mon-day

Sagittarius - October 5, 2009

A group with which you are associated could bring information to your attention that puts you in a very positive frame of mind and almost has you skipping all the way home. You should enjoy socializing today, dear Sagittarius, as you are even more gregarious than usual and both old and new friends could seek out your company. A victory of some kind has come your way, which contributes to your great mood. Enjoy your day.

MSN Astrology

...agree.

finally got a new (used, of course) computer chair. seven bucks at goodwill, and it's red.

click: evolution of dance. i wanna learn this.


1/100 children have autism. scary. (just heard it on the news)
b/c of better diagnosis and more being born with.

article tree.

click: okinawans mirror native hawaiians.

(this isn't what i named it...and i like my title better, but oh well.)

10-4?

...10-4.

my pops and i used to say this when i was little.
wow...i never new there was a whole list of ten-codes!
click: 10-codes.


i <3 fall decor and my new camera.
(i'm guessing a lot more pics coming soon.)


took a stroll to the shopping center down the road to run a couple errands and cruise with the w.s. crew for a minute.
i put on my headphones and it was back to the old mason jennings playlist and it felt great.
getting back to "me".


i bought a shirt at savers,
it came with quite a shock:
the tag inside read darren.
off all the t's in the world...this is the one i got?!


i've also been listening to the load of jack johnson.
hmmm...jack johnson, hawaii...life is good.


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work was fairly slow.

towards the end of the night i was near the front and saw a lady with her hands over her face with her down.
she was crying.
i asked her if she was okay and she said no; someone had just hit on her and head and stole her purse just on the corner in front of the restaurant. she was sobbing and had a couple other scrapes.
i called the police and other comforted her until the cops came.
crazy.

witnessed a seemingly rare occurance on the drive home: lightning.
seriously though, it barely ever seen lighting or hear thunder in hi.

now that i can see you...

...i don't think you're worth a second glance. (-dash con)


day recap:

casey,pool,bacon wrapped mushrooms and steak on the grill around noon.
cold stone.
work.


the bug is indeed running wonderfully btw.



along with the bracelet comes the friendship. it's now cut off.

click: rapid hope loss.