don't know when, but

...my day is gonna come.

b.lo's right, everyone deserves to love and be loved. 

it's weird to believe it's been like three years since i've had a boyfriend, and the last one either had a drug problem or was in rehab our whole "relationship", so it's not like we were even a normal, "happy", boyfriend/girlfriend couple for the most part.

b.lo also told me about his girlfriend, and how he wanted to build her a really nice bicycle (he's into bikes), and how my wallet looks like hers (he bought it for her because she always used to lose her stuff, but now she doesn't :) ).

and only a day earlier i was grateful that i got to spend the beautiful day and night ("day and night", the three words that always remind me of the lonely stoner song...) camping on a beach with friends.  we had the mountains behind us and only a few other camps lay strewed upon the beach that went on for miles.  there were hundreds of wild dolphins going up and down the coast only a feet from the shore-it was absolutely amazing.  a real dolphin show.  for a couple of hours we were able to see them swiming and flipping and jumping.

and whole rainbow also shone across the water.

that was a postcard day, probably a once (maybe twice if you're lucky) in a lifetime experience.

and the day was great.

but in the end, i was kind of sad.

as i looked around at everyone, i realized more and more how nice it must be to love and be loved. two people sleeping in a one-person lawn chair all night is no big thing if you're "one", and you just may tend to mimic each other in you're sleep with out even knowing it.

so, yes, like i said, the "day and night" (don't forget to read it in the way of the lonely stoner song) was great, and the pussy wagon, a.k.a. p.w., did juuuust great in means of bein down with the small kine off roadage, and an easy and fairly comfortable way for me to camp.  but it could fit two, and even if it didn't really fit two, it could.

[fyi. click: lonely stoner song.]

don't know when, but my day is gonna come.

*not that i am in any way looking for someone to make me happy, i have to make myself happy- i'm just saying it would be nice.
and i deserve it, right?

and today was a shitty day at work.  and i haven't been really pissed off/annoyed at work in a while, but i really do think it started with the fact that it was the fourth of july, and i had to work.
not only did i have to work, but we also had a work meeting scheduled at 9 a.m. this morning...and i had also closed last night. please tell me why, unless you're a complete moron who doesn't know major american holidays or you're just a big jerk, why, why, why would you schedule a working meeting on the fourth of july?

so, like i said before, initally after my one "day and night" of camping with friends, i was truely greateful for the experience.  but then i just got mad i had to work the rest of the weekend, and i wasssn't even getting holiday pay and to top it all off, people are whack.

so i was pissed.  but luckly, a co-worker said she'd stay and cover my shift.

i got off just as the fireworks were beginning...but i wasn't sure whether going to the fireworks show and watching them alone there was more depressing or just watching them from the road as i drove, so i just saw what i saw from the road as i drove home.
sirens keep going like crazy outside.


some change could do me good. i always say this, but never go through-a new job?  it really could make all of the difference, or maybe it wouldn't.  idk.


Sagittarius - July. 5, 2010

You might feel like you've come out of the dark and into the light today, Sagittarius. A weight has been lifted, but there's still a great deal of emotional drama that needs to work itself out. Go for a long walk this afternoon and increase your lung capacity. Get your heart rate up. You'll find that the more active you are, the better you'll be able to sort through your emotional trauma.
 
MSN Astrology
 

i watched back to the future 2 yesterday, and honestly couldn't even really remember the story or anything, and it was really, really good.


click:  breakdown. so sixth grade for me.  but timeless.